Monday, August 30, 2010

A Note

So, thought I'd give anyone who's still out there a bit of an update. It's been 4 and 1/2 years since I started this blog (ishly) which is kind of cool, and it makes me sad that I haven't written much lately. There are many reasons for that. But I do hope to start posting with some sort of semi-regularity again because, to be honest, all I've ever wanted since I was a little girl was to have my own publication in which to put rants and nonsense and poetry. Blogs are kind of 10-yr-old Miri's wet dream. Also, abandoned warehouses, but I am as of yet unable to realize that one. So it's a shame not to exploit this opportunity more than I do. And since in the near future I intend to have a spate of free time in which to create more nonsense, because there really isn't enough in the world, this seems like a good method.
Also, I started this blog when I was making aliyah, and I am now leaving Israel for awhile. I have to go home and earn money. And also .... I just need a break. I have spent 23 years in a world that is only a fraction of what this planet has to offer and I think it would be healthy, prudent and wise of me to step out of context for a bit. Shift the perspective. See some mountains. That sort of thing.
Part of me knows that I need this, that I've been needing it for about five years. But I've paid my dues, (almost) won my degree, been the good girl, and it's time. It's time for me to be who I need to be, and not who everyone else needs me to be. In short, I have absolutely no idea where I'm going or what I'm doing next. And like all unknown things, that's scary. But the possibility implied is so immense. What would you do if you could do absolutely anything? (within the parameters of reality, according to the laws of physics and whatnot.)
That's the question that's been keeping me up nights these days. Although, past a certain point, who knows what is the cause and what merely an amusement with which to pass the time? As things go along it gets harder and harder to tell.

Oh! And also, I'll be spending some time with the family, which is usually fodder for blog silliness. So stay tuned.